Life has kept me busy and I have continued to procrastinate on this blogging adventure. Writing is always on my mind and for some reason I have not made it a priority. There are many moments throughout the day that I feel compelled to write and by the time evening rolls around my inspiration is gone. As with everyone, life keeps rolling along and many times I want to share because I know others are going through the same things as me.
If I am honest, I also don’t write because I feel this blog needs a specific theme or direction. The details have not yet been ironed out and I hope that by writing and sharing with others this space will evolve into what it is meant to be.
Changes are happening very rapidly around me. I am the mom of fantastic teenagers and an incredible young man who just left my sweet nest… My oldest son is 20 years old and just purchased his own home. What a great time for him! I am so inspired by his drive and initiative to make life exactly what he wants it to be. I am not the mom whose heart is suffering because my kids are growing up. Contrarily, I am the mom who is celebrating their accomplishments and encouraging them to live exactly as they envision. Motherhood is hard but I have found that celebrating my kids as individuals has helped me to handle the ever-changing life I am gifted.
My second son was just accepted to college. Those who know my family understand that for this child there is reason to be exuberant. God sends each of us to earth with a unique set of challenges and strength. Well, this child has had a very rough time in school, battling learning disabilities since he started. However, this child is receiving an advanced diploma (in spite of school recommending he strive for a standard diploma) and this child has been accepted to a 4-year college. I am so very excited for him and cannot wait to see who he becomes. He has been given charisma and charm and a kind heart and determination. I know he was given to me to help me learn patience and to learn to slow down. I don’t believe that being a mother is all about teaching our children; I believe that being a mother is about loving but also to learn from our kids. I know I have learned tremendous, valuable lessons from my kids and for that I am grateful.
The changes continue happening all around me. I have only been working for about 8 months after being a wife and mom for 22 years, getting divorced, and completing my degree. Professionally, I have no idea where I will end up. All of it is very uncertain and I cannot see that path at all. This is where I feel unsettled. I know I want to make a difference to others, my heart wants to give and spread kindness in every aspect of my life. But, kindness doesn’t pay the bills. I am trying to focus on joy, gratitude and following the gentle promptings I receive. If I have learned anything during this major transition period, it is that things always have a way of working out….
Through all this, I don’t feel my nest is emptying, I feel it swelling with goodness and sharing….